August 2011
7 posts
What I found out today...
I was using what used to be SB’s pc as all the music is on it. To save me going back and forth computers, I decided to visit youtube, so I opened up google chrome by accident from the start menu instead of firefox and as I was typing in youtube into the address bar, I accidently typed “youp” and what did it bring up? youporn browser history. So of course I clicked it, and it...
Waiting...
…for that little message of hate saying I’m harrassing someone, although I’ve not even messaged them…. That’s what you get for googling my handle :)
Laughing even harder now
When I figured out my facebook settings were set to friends of friends not friends only, I realised that it would be more probable that the li’l nosey parker of a snoot reading my wall was indeed his new “Lady”, as I did not realise she was a member of the same facebook page that I was accused of writing things on, when they were written on my wall instead. But when I checked,...
Little girls pretending to be adults.
It makes me laugh. Believing venom said by someone who is obviously still seething. His problems are now yours. Enjoy the temper tantrums thrown by a grown man. They are now your burden. Enjoy the jealousy, the critisism, the anger, The “woe is me” plea, the “all women treated me like shit (because I’m an actual twat)”, the narcissism… dear gods, the...
I hope this isn't real
Please gods, don’t let this be real! http://t.co/dJ1QixK1/03/wtf-ukraine-baby-yoga/
Some people's tumblr...
Oh. My. Gods.
Seriously.
Get some initiative and create something uniquely yours!
Looks like a retarded squirrel has hacked your account, love!!!!
July 2011
1 post
I think it's hilarious...
…when people think they know better than me on certain subject, when I clearly know way more than they do. It’s almost as if I know too much. Well, the truth is indeed out, now to wait for the inevitable fight - which will happen, if you haven’t had a bust up already. Then, I can truly free someone. If only you realise I’m doing it for your own good! You deserve someone...
May 2011
1 post
Court.
SB came back up to Scotland on 3rd May for the court case, in which he eventually plead guilty to assault on 10th Dec 2010. He was pleading not guilty and had a court order keeping him from getting in contact with me because social services wanted to protect my children from his violence. I waited to be called from the witness room to give evidence on the happenings of 10th of December.
The...
December 2010
3 posts
Contemplation - This is all for the best
Over the last few days, his statuses have been “she” this and “she” that. He is wanting my attention. He gets it as well, but not once have I mentioned his name (I don’t think) in a self pitiful status. I mention how I feel, or I write an impromptu poem, but I never mention his name.
I see people he hardly knows himself, attempting to console him, but with him it is...
Limbo
A week passed already, a week of contemplation. A week of telling people what happened. Realising that my grief has turned to anger has startled me. But it’s the healing process after all. I was kidding myself thinking I was happy, after going through numerous photos going back to 2007 that I’d taken after a verbal argument. I don’t remember the argument, I just remember how I was hurting in...
Depression
For a while now, nothing seems to make me happy anymore. I feel there is a block. I cannot go any further on this journey unless I find, and accomplish my purpose. There’s more to life than lust. More than love. Survival, companionship. What if, after many years of denial or pity, a realisation emerges that the object of your affection just doesn’t fit you anymore. The arguments are futile. I...
September 2010
1 post
Fight Club
So I’m a bastard because I’ve already decided (and shared that decision) to take my eldest out shopping tomorrow with her birthday money while SB’s out at a job interview (his first in months), but of course I’m in the wrong as I must have used the wrong tone because it didn’t register with him as he played WoW.
Is that my fault? I’m not spending an extra £3.60 on bus fares as outings these...
August 2010
1 post
Defamation
Slander and libel is the communication of a statement that makes a claim, expressly stated or implied to be factual. It is usually a requirement that this claim be false and that the publication is communicated to someone other than the person defamed.
Slander refers to a malicious, false and defamatory spoken statement or report, while libel refers to any other form of communication such as...
May 2010
1 post
Confusion.
SB convinced me to go through with it. Being a logical choice, but inside, I was still toiling. Though after discovering it was a really early pregnancy, a chemically induced evacuation wouldn’t be too different from a heavy period. so, at work, I texted him the procedure as we couldn’t really talk about it in front of my eldest daughter, and his replies were as if he wanted to keep it. This...
A few questions
I decided to ask myself some questions….
When was the last time he held me, just because he could? When was the last time he kissed me, other than saying goodbye in the mornings as he leaves for work? When was the last time he embraced me as I wept? When was the last time he told me that he loved me, while gazing into his eyes? Why doesn’t he console me when I’m upset? Why does he feel the...
April 2009
1 post
Life's wee lessons
I’ve made mistakes in my life, like we all have. My judgement wasn’t used correctly, or in some cases not used at all. I’ve found a pattern emerge. When my emotions were up in arms, I had no control over what choices I made. I just wanted the pain to stop.
On my 27 years on the earth, here are lessons I’ve learned.
Men like women to be strong and independant, but not too much so they lose...
December 2008
1 post
Livid yet again
Ok – when an event occurs, which hurts you badly, and you retaliate in such a way because it was the last straw, thus it tears two people apart, wouldn’t it be nice that your voice was heard?
Your story, instead of biased people judging you, who are not told both sides and even then they’d probably not give two shits as their boy is precious. Nobody is perfect.
When people aren’t taught...
August 2008
1 post
Another kick in the teeth
No matter how much you like someone, if they are in a relationship with someone, you should leave it alone. Find someone who will devote themselves 100% to you and not have much emotional baggage. SB’s gone from bad relationship to bad relationship, and because this is set in his mind, eventually things would have soured. He’s been treated like crap by women, but I can honestly say that he...
June 2008
1 post
I am not a “piece of shit”.
I am not a “piece of shit”.
My opinion is as valid as anyones. Taking two rats camping and leaving the other behind is silly. They’d be better off in the house, together, so they can communicate (even though they hate each other). SB is ostracising Yogi, like he does to my eldest. He hates being challenged, he hates it when I’m right. He wants his own way all the time. He is not right on...
What have I got myself into?
Woke to SB calling the girls bastards. It fucking upset me. I took My eldest to school, no apology when I returned. Jehovah’s Witnesses called, still no apology. SB went on my laptop and I pressed him for an apology. He refused, calling me a range of derogatory words, including bastard and c**t. He’d thump anyone for calling him names like that. Am I just supposed to put up with it?
I became...